Random blogging.

I'm preparing to leave for tuition soon, about 10 minutes, and I think I should do another useless update. I think my skin is getting from bad to worse. I feel fatter. But today when I tried my denim shorts from long ago which I originally couldn't wear, WHOA I COULD FIT IN! Haha. That's an improvement. But I still feel fat though. School this week was relatively okay, but strangely I was much more tired than usual, sleeping at 8/9/10pm or so. Last night I slept at 8.45pm and woke up at 10plus in the morning. Must be all that "studying"! Hahaha.

You know, maybe I should just concentrate on things which are more important and think ahead, not just on what is happening now. I should strip away all the extras and annoying things in my life now. I'm going to return to my normal self. I'll try my best.

Enough with all the chasing and all my stupid wishes which I know will never ever happen. Sigh. Looks like we're never meant to be. And whatever, I give up competing with you ): and I don't care anymore. It's super tiring to go crazy and all. I'll try to keep a low-profile. Haha, I know this sounds like a joke, but I don't want to be boy-crazy already. It's really energy-draining. I'll just learn to appreciate everyone in my life now and stop wishing for anything more than what I already have.

God will provide.

I LOVE YOU! THANKS FOR BEING THERE FOR ME F4 :D EH ALPHABET BOYS = FOR FUN THANKS. HAHA.

School blues.

Somebody just told me that prep. exams are just next week or next next week. I don't believe it. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! I better start intense revision nowwwww. Shit.

I was caught being a bad student today. Awww. Hahaha. Who gives a shit anyway.

And WY, I'm sorry we don't have the same taste in guys (haha!) but I really cannot stand dao guys who think it's damn cool. But all the best for you to try and change or what, haha. OUR ALPHABET GUYS ARE SO EFFING HAWTTT (AS IF). MY RJC GUY IS STILL THE BEST, HAHA.

Dear God, i pray that i'll see him and our friendship will grow and prosper, like ASAP. thanks. hallelujah. amen. amen. amen.

Lies.

Behind every don't know, there's some knowledge. Behind every no, there's some yearning. Behind every okay, there's some reluctance. Behind every lie, there's some truth.

Anymore?

And yes Fred, guys are weirddd. Most of the time. Haha.

Guess what.

1. I "got no life". I'm only happy on weekends.

2. I keep looking at expensive-and-crazily-branded stuff online when I know I don't have a credit card to buy them.

3. Guys are weird. Haha.

4. Braces people are beautiful (and kewt, if you get what i mean *raises eyebrows at Sheila*) and I'm so going to get some in my mouth asap.

5. Mrs L. aka ACB wrote on my worksheet today: "I'm very glad/happy to see you put effort in my work, and actually do my class work. Keep it up!" (well, something like that, I can't remember).

6. I'm gonna be cooler than him. He's just a small fry.

7. I'm so into the lame jokes thing. Got any to share?

8. Oh wait, I'm supposed to be cool. Why am I into lame jokes?! HAHA.

9. I really really need to get to a flea m. and get some Marc by Marc Jacobs shit at cheap cheap cheap!

10. School sucks.

Hello I'm bored.

Haven't seen Nat in about 2 weeks. WEIRD.

Camwhores.

Hello G.

Addictive shit.

EXCUSE ME.

MY PHONE DIED. PLS DON'T BOTHER CALLING/TEXTING. THANKS.

The guy w/o FB.

Meet bestie. A monkey wannabe.We meant funny faces, not twit faces Bestie!
C.M.I. (Cannot make it.)

Light the Way.

Roy. Jonathan.Oh man. G's hands look like Jon's!Bestie says I look like lian here. -.-All our failed jump shots. Sigh.OMG. FAIL. FAIL. FAIL. FAILED LIAN/ACT CUTE SHOT. I CAN'T DO IT, HAHAHA.

I think I'm going to break.

I'm closing off from everyone now. I'm gonna be as hard as a rock. Stone. Please don't take it to heart if I roll my eyes at you or look pissed. I'm trying to clear my head now. With so many disappointments in my life now, it's hard to decide who's true anymore.
I'm sick and tired of school life. It's draining. But it's okay, I'm still holding on. Your face won't put me down. I have moved on.. Have I? I would like to believe so. I miss all the friends I used to have. Now when I cry, I don't hear your voice comforting me. I don't feel any warmth. It's like you're dead. You all died. And I'm mourning your death. How pathetic is that. I was reading my journal from 2008 and I cried again. At least I still have your photos and memories in there. I can always see you smiling at me in there. It makes me laugh. It makes me cry.
Be strong K.